Be Sure to Spend Time With God

I know that as we go throughout our busy days, we many times forget to sit down and give thanks to God for the many blessings He bestows upon us as we go throughout our busy days.

Why is it that we can devote so much time to all these various things that stress us out, disappoint us, anger us, etc., but we struggle with spending time with God who relieves all of that stress, anger and disappointment? It’s very backwards. It does not make sense. It frustrates me, especially because there’s really no excuse for why I don’t spend time with Him. The extended amounts of time that I can sleep or play video games for…I could be spending time with God. The extended amounts of time that I spend worrying about things beyond my control…I could be spending time with God.

I used to pray every morning before I left for work. I fell off. However, that alone just isn’t enough. God deserves so much more than that from me! Especially the way I’ve been getting blessed recently? I should be running through the hallways at work, at home, where ever I go. I should be praise breaking all OVER the place.

Yet…I don’t.

Why?

There’s numerous distractions, numerous illegitimate reasons that I could come up with as to why I don’t spend time with God. It’s ridiculous really. It’s ridiculous because, do you think God sits back and says “Oh, I didn’t have time to bless you or forgive you because I was too busy and distracted with something else, but I’ll get around to it.” No! He absolutely, DOES NOT do that. Do you know how bad things would be if that happened? We would be S.O.L., on steroids. No, but instead I imagine God shakes His head at us daily, probably saying “my children, my children, what will I ever do with you”, but still continues to love us and bless us REGARDLESS of our actions. Oh yes, and let’s not forget, He’s teaching us lessons in the process. God will not hesitate to break us down first in order to teach us a valuable lesson about not being humble, not spending enough time with Him, etc. God gets jealous, just like our boyfriends or girlfriends or husbands or wives, or even our FRIENDS do when we don’t make a point of spending time with them.

I get it though, I get it. We can’t see God. We can’t see Jesus. Out of sight, out of mind right? If we aren’t interacting with something physically every day, it’s easy to forget about whatever that something may be. We’re human. That’s bound to happen. However, it. is. not. an. excuse! I have to do better. WE have to do better. God has done way too much for us, for us not to sit down, thank Him, spend time with Him, tell Him about our day, give Him praise for simply being who He is and taking care of us, EVERY DAY.

How you spend time with God is how you spend time with God. There’s no special technique or method you’re supposed to do. What matters is the strength of your relationship with Him. Imagine, all the time you spend being angry or worrying about something beyond your control, all that time could be time you’re spending with the One who created you. It’s one of the best times too because you can cry and let things out and not be judged, you can laugh with God (yes, contrary to popular belief, God has a sense of humor), you can even vent your frustrations! He will listen to every single word you have to say. You just have to patient, quiet and listen to what He has to say about everything.

Also keep in mind, just because you’re improving your relationship with God, doesn’t mean your life will be without hardship. If life was easy, we wouldn’t grow. We wouldn’t need God. God is there for us. God is our strength when we become weak and can’t fathom how we will continue living life. Let God fight the toughest parts of your battles for you. Don’t try to do everything on your own. It won’t feel good and everything will spin out of control, and we don’t want that.

 

Corinne

Corinne Bailey Rae! My absolute favorite artist (other than Michael Jackson) to walk this planet.

She’s not a new artist on the scene, she’s been producing some bops since 2005 (I believe, starting with Like A Star). If you haven’t listened to her yet, here’s one of my favorite songs by her:

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I’m writing a little bit about her today because I listen to her music often, and I listen because I relate to most of it. Also, her voice is so pure and genuine and it just puts you at ease and fills you with joy at the same time. Not to mention, she’s absolutely gorgeous!

Corinne Bailey Rae, a British singer/songwriter, provides that connection in her music that we a lot of times don’t have the chance to experience with the music that’s being produced today. Her most recent album was published in 2016, and it’s titled The Heart Speaks in Whispers. 

However, this is not a short artist biography.

I was watching an interview that she had with The Pool , a 10-minute interview, and she talked about the loss of her husband, what it was like to come back to music after that and her most recent album. She talked about a few different things as well, like things she enjoyed, having an inner voice, etc. As I was sitting there watching I just kept thinking: Wow, this girl is so amazing! As she was talking, I really did see myself in her a lot, especially when it came to the creative parts.

Anyway, my point in saying all this is: she is a really powerful woman, and such an inspiration to me. She’s worth listening to and learning about for sure. She’s the reason I started playing guitar and the first song I learned to play real well is in fact Like A Star.

Go and give her a listen! I’m sure you won’t regret it.

It’s Always Something

Here lately it seems as though a week can’t go by and something not catch on fire or just completely fall apart. 

It’s been incredibly difficult to stay optimistic and not let anger, fear, sadness and loneliness overwhelm me. Most times I find myself sitting on my bed, in complete silence, just letting tears roll down my face. I let them roll until the pain I feel inside surfaces as painful sobs and I’m laying on my side, fetal position, allowing my comforter to become soaked with tears.

I question myself all the time, why am I crying, why am I like this so often? I literally have no reason to be.

Yes, I’m getting some help for all of you wondering if I’m trying to do anything about this to help myself.

For whatever reason though, I find myself in that situation far more than I would like. It’s exhausting and it’s wearing down on me mentally, spiritually and physically. I just want things to be somewhat normal again. It’s been nothing but a vicious roller coaster for a few months now.

I want to be how I used to be, but 10 times better than that.

Also, believe me. This isn’t a pity post. Far from it. I do not want anyone to pity me, nor am I pitying myself. I’m not because I’m the one who allowed myself to get like this. It’s no one else’s fault. I’ve been trying to do things on my own and without God’s help, and this is the result of my actions. I got too big in the head and that’s when everything started spiraling out of control. But God got my attention two nights ago:

I was cooking dinner and everything was just going wrong. I was getting frustrated because it was so difficult and I didn’t know what I was doing. I don’t cook. It was taking longer than it should’ve taken and I almost burned the food. Nothing was going the way I imagined or the way I planned and at a point, I threw the knife I was holding down into the sink and yelled “I give up! I can’t do this!”

My mother heard this outburst and immediately told me, “Oh no, you can’t give up. No ma’am, you’ve got things to do. Cooking takes time, and if you don’t do it often you have to learn. If you need help, you have to ask for it.” She then proceeded to look up a video on how to correctly chop things, and showed me. Things went much smoother after that.

While I did end up burning the food a little bit on the top…everything else underneath was perfectly fine and tasted wonderful (according to my dad).

It’s funny because, even in the middle of typing this up, God is speaking to me again after recollecting that stressful night in the kitchen! (After reading that short blurb, I wonder if you can see where I’m coming from).

Once I finished up dinner, I prepared a bowl of pasta and proceeded to head to my room to watch something on Hulu. To my surprise and dismay, my Xbox would not connect to the WiFi, no matter what I did to try to fix it. My phone was also completely silent, even though I was hoping to hear from someone. So, before I let my anger consume me, I took a deep breath, leaned back on my pillow, finished eating my food and said “Alright God, you have my attention. Let’s talk.”

Before I knew it, I was in tears, asking God to forgive me for neglecting Him and not spending time with Him as much I should be. I asked Him to forgive me for focusing all my attention on someone else, and neglecting myself in the process, not taking care of my temple and not utilizing the gifts that He’s blessed me with that would without a doubt bring glory to His name. I asked for forgiveness for a lot of things. I cried and cried until I was sitting cross legged with my face down on my comforter, wet from my tears, and I had fallen asleep.

The next morning, as I was getting dressed, I looked in the mirror and I realized that I am able to see the upper part of my ribs again. Seeing this made me have some not-so-happy flashbacks (if you’ve visited the tab on my site that says “Crohnie” then you know what I’m talking about).

The point is, I’ve been focusing on the wrong things. Not spending time with God like I used to. Just thinking back, my life was much more full of joy and I was honestly and truly HAPPY. There were hard times but they were few and far between! When I stopped spending that time with God, stopping to listen to Him and talk to Him about things, things went awry. This is not to say that I’ve not been getting blessed, because I have. Without a doubt. But since I’ve stopped doing that as much, it’s as if I’ve been fighting this never ending uphill battle completely ALONE. I’m tired, I’m burnt out. I don’t want to fight alone anymore.

So, I’m working on it. Working on my relationship with God again and I’m going to keep working on it because:

I have to get stronger.

I have to get wiser.

I have to be more patient.

I have to let go of anger.

I have to let go of fear.

I have to trust God.

One of my sisters posted something online that I read the other day, and she stated:

“We must be willing to get rid of the life we’ve planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us.”

Are you ready to let go and let God?