BlerDCon the Recap: Part Two

YER. I see you made it to Part Two. Clearly that means you enjoyed Part One 👀. Welcome back, my dedicated reading friend.

Well, since Part One was mostly comprised of the activities I took part in while at the convention, you already know that the second part is going to be about…THE COOKOUT FAM, AYYYYY.

Every convention I go to, just expect me to mention the litty litness of The Cookout. Cookout Fam Chronicles if you will, haha. There’s a lot of pictures that I took of us, so please, enjoy this lovely slideshow:

ANYWAY.

I already learn so much from everyone day to day in Discord, but it’s on a different level when you see your fam in person actually speaking on their personal experiences, etc. with a passionate tone in their voices. Many of the panels I went to, we mostly ventured

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Genesis speaking da truth

to together and it was astounding to hear everyone’s perspectives up close concerning stories and occurrences happening in our communities.

We basically traveled together in one big and various group pods the entire time, and let me tell you, it was the best thing ever. Sure it’s nice to enjoy something alone, but it’s even better to be able to share a moment with someone and laugh, cry and yes, even debate with them about what you all just witnessed (or overheard, LOL).

My most favorite moments occurred when we were all chilling upstairs in @Genesis_0109 hotel room, just hanging out, playing a card game he introduced us to, and just voicing our different opinions on a myriad of topics. If you fell asleep and got caught slipping, best believe you got sleep cammed by yours truly, LOL.

Yes, I have this thing I do called Sleep Cam: if you fall asleep around me while we are all being extremely loud and having fun, your picture will be taken and most likely with people doing random funny things in the background behind you.

I definitely can’t forget the after parties. WHEW CHILLEEEE. We danced and danced and danced, and I thoroughly enjoyed every moment of it. The fam gets super hype okay, that’s all I’m going to say on that.

So, about this COSPLAY.

Last but not least: I cosplayed for the first time in my entire life and let me tell you, that was one of the most exhilarating and rewarding experiences I have had in a while. I’m actually getting emotional as I reflect on getting everything together for it. I’m even more emotional because I cosplayed a character of my own original design.

Realizing the fact that I was able to bring her to life, and it wasn’t too shabby looking either? I WAS SHOOK. What made it even better was that a couple people actually chased me down to take a picture with me! I definitely wasn’t expecting that because, even though I was happy that I cosplayed, I was thinking that my cosplay wasn’t as great as some of the others I saw. I honestly had to keep reminding myself that none of that mattered and that I needed to stop comparing myself. At the end of the day, all that mattered was that I cosplayed, I did my best with what I had, I had fun and freaking I enjoyed it! Now I just have to work on my posing, LOL. (Solo photos of me courtesy of @Tru1p)


Right now, I’m tearing up because, this is my family, and in such a short time, these phenomenal individuals have become incredibly important to me and I care about each and every one of them. It’s such a blessing to be able to serve the community as an Admin staff member because I really get a chance to see how our efforts are helping those that come into the community from a granular perspective. Like I mentioned earlier, I learn so much from being around them and hearing their stories. Even though they roast the heck out of me (out of love, LOL), the out pouring of help, support and love I and everyone else receives is incredible. These are some of the most talented, driven, intelligent, hard-working and dedicated people that I’ve come to meet so far in my life. I hate that we all live so far away from each other, but it’s comforting to know that we are all just a Discord message, Voice Chat, Stream or Game Lobby away.

If you’re a PoC Content Creator looking for a group like The Cookout, I definitely recommend you check us out. The group is only accessible through an application, and that is temporarily closed while we process the huge number of applications we’ve received in the past month or so. However, keep up with us on Twitch, Instagram and Twitter!

Special Shout Out to the Cookout Fam I was able to hang with at this convention, y’all are top tier ❤

@blisscreates, @stellyblanca, @SpoonGodTitan, @willthegreatest, @therealrapcritic @LilaBoBina, @Tru1p, @JermainePlays, @vickibewicked, @_LadyKayLee, @DippedNV8Splash, @007Steeze, @_kingether, @DJ_Cocoa_Butter, @CSamSim, @ProdigyDaPrince, @JediOso, @Leesh_Capeesh, @Nizzy917, @Bball4Life35, @frenchiefied, @unicorninthekitchen@RobRegalGxC, @Genesis_0109, @Son_of_a_yellow, @shinageeeexpress, @TheRetroAstro, @dream_killa22, @xStill_Infamous, @skool_the_otaku and @kendallxanime

(Everyone above isn’t necessarily in the Cookout) If I missed you, it wasn’t on purpose. There was a lot of y’all in two days LOL.


Thank you again for reading Part Two of my BlerDCon Recap! There will be an actual vlog of the activities coming soon, once I find time to sit down and edit!

BlerDCon the Recap: Part One

Not that I don’t mind blowing up everyone’s Twitter and/or Instagram mentions with tags, replies, etc., AND WOULD DEFINITELY DO IT WITHOUT HESITATION… I figured I’d type up an article (paired with a vlog, soon come) of my experience at my first Blerdcon this past weekend instead, because, whew chile I have a lot to say.

I truly don’t even know where to begin. I suppose I’ll first talk about the activities I attended! I probably am going to split this into two parts.

Aside from the blazing heat at the Hyatt Regency in Crystal City (LOL), I was in AWE from the moment I walked into the hotel.

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Repping our North Carolina Area Codes

This time, having my sister (@Bball4Life35) AND brother (@dream_killa22) in tow, we not only went on our first “family” road trip, but we also got to experience a world that we really are mostly cut off from back in our hometowns. I’m glad that I was able to take them with me, and that we were immersed in this adventure together. It’s definitely a memory we will always cherish!

BlerDCon was nothing short of magical. It was a multi-level, action packed weekend, with everyone absolutely living their best lives with no ragrets (not even one letter). I was able to participate in my first Maid Cafe!

That food was AMAZING. It was just as fun as it’s portrayed in Anime, haha. For the first time in my life I tried soba noodles. Not to mention, one of my good friends from college (@treezyspeakeasy) was actually a maid (Her maid name was Michiko)! It was super awesome to see another one of my friends enjoying the same type of interest as myself. The rest of the Maid Cafe staff were super hospitable too. Since I went to the Cafe alone (I high key was wandering and forgot to tell my fam that I ended up there, LOL), they sat and talked with me the entire time which I really appreciated.

We also visited a few panels. To name a few: It Really Be Your Own People: Gatekeeping the Black Experience, D.I.Y. Sci-Fi Filmmaking and discussion on the Culture of Black Twitter.

It Really Be Your Own People: Gatekeeping the Black Experience was an insightful IMG_0829.jpegdiscussion because it drew light to the fact that, whether we mean to or not…we all gatekeep at some point.

  • If you’re unsure of what “Gatekeeping” means, it’s referring to making someone feel as though they can’t enjoy a hobby, show, book, series, etc. because they don’t necessarily have as much knowledge as you do on the respective topic. Basically making them feel as though they don’t have a right to enjoy whatever it is they’re trying to enjoy because they don’t know all the backstories. Miss me with that.

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I, along with many other people, have witnessed this happening on various social medias, and it’s honestly disgusting and pointless. Just let someone enjoy whatever it is they’re trying to enjoy (as long as it’s not illegal or very wrong, yikes).

The D.I.Y. Sci-Fi Filmmaking panel I came in at the end of (because I was putting on my cosplay, huehuehue). However, for the little bit that I could listen in on, I thoroughly IMG_0842.jpegenjoyed it and probably will soon be getting back into learning more about Premiere Pro and After Effects since I have access to them for now! My takeaway from this panel was that you can do a lot with a little, and you’re really only limited by your imagination.

The discussion on the Culture of Black Twitter, led by one of my super totally awesome brilliant friends Lila (@LilaBoBina), and two other women making some power moves outchea, Tanya (@cypheroftyr) and Shonté (@ShonteWrites),

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Tanya, Shonté and Lila

IMG_0990highlighted how Black Twitter means a lot of different things for everyone. They also discussed how much society takes ideas from Black Twitter and tries to market it back to the rest of the world as if it was their original idea. They especially are privy to doing this without giving credit to the people that they stole from.

Quirktastic, the group who hosted Quirkcon back in June, also collaborated on a video with another group called TeamRedPro to make a live action short film called Afro Samurai Champloo. Y’all. This had to be one of the best and most hilarious short films I’ve seen in a while! The blooper reel definitely had me rolling at the end, ahaha.

Among the other things, I was able to attend a little bit of the comedy show and peek in on some of the table top gaming they had going on as well. I can’t forget the PLETHORA of extraordinary vendors that seemed to never end! Oh, and don’t get me started on the Food Trucks, WHEW CHILE.

I also SHOOK ESTELLE’S HAND, AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Haha, well, I think this is a good stopping point for BlerDCon the Recap: Part One. If you would like to read Part Two, stay tuned. If not, that ain’t no problem! I definitely do appreciate you taking the time to read Part One! Be Blessed fam!


Also, I want to just say that everyone, no matter which con you go to…everyone should experience a con. More specifically a comic, gaming, anime, etc. type con. It’s an incredible adventure that I believe would bring out the inner kid in all of us.

More pics from the convention:

Don’t Throw People Away

I took a trip to NJ earlier this year to visit my family. One of my aunts celebrated her 60th birthday.

While we were there, we stopped by and visited my grandfather (my dad’s father). Like we normally do when we all stop by and visit him when we’re in town, we sit in the downstairs living room and just discuss a plethora of things. We laugh, we get super serious, we cry, and then we laugh some more.

At one point, my mother brought up a moment that happened earlier this year when she was dropping my grandmother (her mom) off at her Wellness Center one morning. She described that many elderly people (and even young ones) with and without disabilities get dropped off by their loved ones or caregivers, and while she was describing this, her tone changed to sadness.

Her tone changed to sadness because, while these people are dropping off their family members or friends, they don’t tell them “goodbye,” or “I’ll see you later,” or “I love you.” By this point, my mom had tears in her eyes.

There was one older lady in particular that my mother watched get dropped off one day and the person that dropped her off didn’t say a word to the woman she was leaving. In fact, she was kind of rude with the person she was dropping off. On top of that, the older lady looked slightly sad and maybe even a little angry. As this was happening, my mom was walking in my grandmother to get her signed in. By this time, the person who dropped the woman off had already left, and my mom was getting ready to leave as well. My mom always makes a point in telling my grandmother, “Have a good day, I love you and I’ll see you later.” The other elderly lady who was still in the room thought my mother was telling her this, so she turned around, smiled at my mother and said to her, “I love you too” then proceeded to walk into the rest of the center.

Wow. What a day changer that can be for someone!

It’s a big deal in my family to say “I’ll see you later” instead of “Bye”, whenever we have to depart from one another for the time being. It’s an even BIGGER deal to make sure we tell each other that we love each other, even if we just had an argument and no body is trying to say that to anyone at the moment in time (haha). Yet, we still do it. We still say we love each other because, it could be the last chance we have to do so, and we don’t want to regret not letting each other know that we love each other despite how crazy we can be sometimes. Or how difficult we can be sometimes. Or how almost unforgiving we can be sometimes. Because we never know.


As we go throughout life, sometimes we tend to treat those who are advanced in their age almost as if they are a burden, they don’t know what they’re talking about half the time, they’re too closed minded for any real conversation or anything meaningful to get through to them or they’re just completely senile.

This is not true.

They are still people. People who are wise. People who still need to know that someone is there for them. That someone is listening to them. That someone cares about them. That someone loves them. They still matter. After all, they are the ones that raised us. Took care of us and nurtured us as we started finding our way through life.

So why is it that people, when our elders become elders…we start treating them like that? Why do we start to “throw them away,”?

Perhaps, and I’m speaking for myself because at one point I was guilty of doing so and I was wrong for doing it, but. Perhaps, it’s because we don’t want to accept that they’re getting older. That they are starting to lose heartwarming memories. That they physically aren’t able to do the things they used to be able to do. Perhaps it’s making us so angry that it’s happening, that we project that anger onto them. They don’t deserve that. They don’t deserve to be thrown away, not after everything a lot of them have done for us.

I may be speaking about taking care of our elders and not throwing them away because of their age and/or disabilities, but this goes for everyone in our lives. We are all valuable, precious children of God, and we need to treat each other as such.

As the year ends, just take some time to reflect and see if you’ve unintentionally “thrown someone away” because you were angry at them, because they were dealing with something personal and it was unfortunately affecting the relationship you had with them, because of a disability, because of a misunderstanding, or even because of their age. If you’ve done this, I pray that there’s still a chance to pick them back up and show them that you care. Tell them that you love them. If you can, give them a great ginormous bear hug. Apologize if you need to apologize for whatever, and hopefully end the year on a good note so that the new year can positively start.


Thank you to all my readers, and followers and supporters and everyone. God Bless and I hope you all have a Happy New Year! 🎆🎇✨

Corinne

Corinne Bailey Rae! My absolute favorite artist (other than Michael Jackson) to walk this planet.

She’s not a new artist on the scene, she’s been producing some bops since 2005 (I believe, starting with Like A Star). If you haven’t listened to her yet, here’s one of my favorite songs by her:

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I’m writing a little bit about her today because I listen to her music often, and I listen because I relate to most of it. Also, her voice is so pure and genuine and it just puts you at ease and fills you with joy at the same time. Not to mention, she’s absolutely gorgeous!

Corinne Bailey Rae, a British singer/songwriter, provides that connection in her music that we a lot of times don’t have the chance to experience with the music that’s being produced today. Her most recent album was published in 2016, and it’s titled The Heart Speaks in Whispers. 

However, this is not a short artist biography.

I was watching an interview that she had with The Pool , a 10-minute interview, and she talked about the loss of her husband, what it was like to come back to music after that and her most recent album. She talked about a few different things as well, like things she enjoyed, having an inner voice, etc. As I was sitting there watching I just kept thinking: Wow, this girl is so amazing! As she was talking, I really did see myself in her a lot, especially when it came to the creative parts.

Anyway, my point in saying all this is: she is a really powerful woman, and such an inspiration to me. She’s worth listening to and learning about for sure. She’s the reason I started playing guitar and the first song I learned to play real well is in fact Like A Star.

Go and give her a listen! I’m sure you won’t regret it.

Animal Crossing: Life Preparation

First…I want to start off with an apology about my last blog post. You know how we all have those moments…heh heh..yeah..ANYWAY.


SO TODAY…*drumroll* We are going to be talking about none other than the game:

Animal Crossing: Wild World

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This is the first time I’ve ever extensively talked about a game on any of my social media, so I’m excited, you should be too. Bianca, why are we talking about this game today? That’s a great question everyone, and I’m definitely going to tell you why in 3…2…1…

ALL RIGHT. I decided to talk about this game today because I recently picked it up out of my good ol’ DS case and started playing it again. I’m that person who likes to keep all of their old gaming systems so that I can reminisce on the good days past by immersing myself in the joys of my childhood.

What made me start playing AC:WW again though is Animal Crossing: Pocket Camp. If you haven’t checked it out or heard of it, it’s a free game in the App Store and it’s super cute and fun.

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Right, so on with my story. One day, once I got home from work, I got the urge to find my charger for my dusty DSi, charge it, and fire up AC:WW. (Okay, the DSi isn’t that old, but there isn’t much you can do with it now seeing as how all the DSi Ware no longer exists, I digress). I was super excited about playing my old game again! It brought back this flood of memories as I was figuring out how the game played out all over again. When the game started, and of course the title screen came up and the theme music started playing, I looked at the top half of my DSi and saw the year said 2005.

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2005 PEOPLE! My goodness! It’s been twelve years since this came out. I was in 5th grade in 2005. I was totally obsessed with this game, but it brought me so much joy.

After getting all emotional and what not, I started the game, erased the town that was already saved on the game card because I had no idea where I left off and I figured it was a good idea to start completely over (run-on sentences, bad). Once I got past the whole town setup portion and was actually able to go out into the world and start exploring it again, I started realizing something. Unbeknownst (ooo big word) to my 11 year old self, but now fully identifiable to my 22 year old self…this game was preparing you for the real, difficult and sometimes depressing phenomenon that is -gasp-…Adulthood.

Y’all, this game had us working at a job as soon as we arrived into the town (which, by the way is TOTALLY UNREALISTIC) which was a huge blessing because…you start off with no monies. None. Nada. You’re given this house in which you could probably hear the dust mites moving around because it was STUPID EMPTY. You also start off with getting to know maybe 3 neighbors, which are all animals by the way (hence the name Animal Crossing). There’s just so much thrown at you once you move in. Kind of like how real adulting is. Once you get out of college or move out from your parents, everything is just thrown at you and you either sink or swim for those initial six months LOL.

Mind you, this game is in real time. As the game progresses, you get laid off almost as immediately as you start working. That’s right, you get to keep this job for a whole day or two! EXCITEMENT. That really depends on how fast you perform your duties. Once that happens, you must start making a living for yourself by catching and selling fish and insects, harvesting fruit, running errands for your neighbors, selling your own furniture that you don’t need anymore, ETC. Unless you got blessed with some online friends who let you come to their town where they had this massive horde of bells (the currency in the game) and rained down all the shiny glory onto you for the free.

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BELLS FOR DAYS

Unfortunately, they shut down Nintendo WFC in 2014. You can no longer venture out and not be all alone in your town talking to yourself. (However there is a wonderful group of people who decided: HEY. THIS WAS A GREAT THING TO HAVE. LET’S BUILD A WHOLE SERVER SO WE CAN ALL KEEP PLAYING TOGETHER. YAY, CHILDHOOD! Bless them. God Bless them.)

I miss that so much. Exchanging friend codes, seeing other towns and the creativity we used to put into the game? It was great. If you missed it, you missed a great time.

Other things this game has you doing that is eerily similar to actual adulthood include:

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That’s Lyle

purchasing Accident Insurance from this random weasel named Lyle who shows up at your front door a few days into the game, paying off a mortgage for your house remodeling from the same raccoon named Tom Nook who hired you and laid you off within the same day (and these mortgages are STEEP people. Just to add a second floor is something like 580,000 bells!),  saving money in a bank account at the town hall (in which you earn interest for your saved bells), flea marketing your unwanted furniture…AND SO MUCH MORE!

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This is just the first mortgage installment…wait did this guy say “a mere”

Another cool thing is…you get the chance to become a Fashion Designer, an Angler, an Archaeologist, a famous painting connoisseur , a whole Entomologist and an Astrologer! So, you catch fish (like I mentioned before), dig up fossils, identify if paintings are counterfeit, catch insects and study the stars (even getting the chance to create your own constellations). That’s totally awesome, right!?

The other aspect of adulting you get to experience that I’d like to mention is…you can share your home with three other people! YAY, ROOMMATES (be they wanted or unwanted…heh heh).

Nothing depressing about this AT ALL, but I assure you, you’re playing the game and you won’t even feel depressed because you’re so entranced by the attractiveness of adventure of owning your own home and more (unless you’re trying to buy this bomb piece of furniture and you only have 5 bells to your name at the time).

This game unknowingly prepared us for life as an adult. Playing at the age I am now has made me realize that, but at the end of the day, it’s such a great game and I believe it’s still worth it to play it. I mean sure, you can be all fancy and buy the more recent versions of Animal Crossing, but why not enjoy the second installment? (The first one came out on the GameCube and my parents unfortunately never got my brothers and I one of those when we were younger. It’s cool though).

Haha, anyway, I hope you got a kick out of reading this! I sure did typing it up lolol.


HAPPY DECEMBER EVERYONE! and Happy, Happy Birthday to my oldest brother. I love you man!

Her Heart’s Desire

She really wants to cuddle.

She wants to be held in a warm, and loving embrace.

She wants to be told she’s beautiful (even though she already knows she is).

She wants to have numerous nap dates because her and her love both enjoy to relax that much.

She wants to talk about random things and be highly imaginative, and not get judged for it.

She wants to laugh for hours and be genuinely goofy with her love for no absolute reason.

She wants to be mad with her love if he’s mad about something (even if she may think it’s pointless to be mad).

She wants to just be in the company of of her love for no reason at all except for the fact that she simply just wants to be in his presence.

She wants to kiss and be kissed over and over again.

She wants to smile out of pure joy when she looks at him. Not because he’s her sole source of happiness, but because he’s happy and full of joy too. Seeing that gives her energy.

She wants to play video games for hours with her love just because they can and will feel no guilt about doing it.

She wants to go on late night adventures just for the heck of it.

She wants to have meme wars.

She wants her love to understand that her silence in his presence doesn’t mean something is wrong, but in fact everything is so right.

She wants to cruise with the windows down with R&B blasting and just be fully immersed in the moment and enjoying life with him.

She wants to sing and play on her guitar for him.

It doesn’t just stop here, she could go on and on…

But most importantly, she wants to be able to pray with and for him and lift him up. Be there for him as much as she can, when life allows her to.

She wants to love God with him, have a heart on fire for God with him, knowing that God’s got them no matter what happens.

She wants to be in pure, genuine love.

A feeling so liberating and so strong…